Today I’m going back to Boston for additional testing before my procedure. As I was getting ready for the day, I noticed something was off. I felt a lump in my throat and my chest was burning. A feeling I have felt far too often. I was experiencing symptoms of anxiety and fear. When I first decided to have a stem cell transplant, I was all in! “Yesssssss, a normal life without pain and hospital visits! Sign me up!” Then I went through a period where I was bombarded by the fears of others.
They ask. “Are you sure you want to do this?” They ask. “Did you pray about this?” Sometimes the question THEY ask plant the seeds of doubt and fear. #snapoutofit Look, I prayed for a cure and being pain-free all my life. Do you think I’m gonna let them and They (even my “family”) stop me from a cure? #nope Real talk, “them and they” is really a principality. Once you recognize it pray over, take no thought and keep it moving! Most importantly, never forget that God Placed the Best Things in Life on the Other Side of FEAR! I am jumping out of this plane! #nomoresicklecell